It's time for a rant.
I am sooo sick of people underestimating me.
In fact, I know quite a bit about emotions, circumstances, consequences-all the works.
I set out for experience. I was certain I was going to make mistakes, I was positive I would get hurt. Because no matter how hard you try to play by the rules and guard yourself by standing on the sidewalk, you'll still bound to get hurt. People try so damn hard to fight this life, to protect themselves from unseen evils. This is nearly impossible to do. Even if you succeed in leading a happy, safe, perhaps even boring life, something big will be missing. There is so much beauty in this world, and yet we let the evil overshadow it. Because we only know what we're taught. The error that adults make when we're children is to make everything absolute. Don't do this, because this is wrong, do this because it is the only way. First of all, what do we really know? We know what harms us, and what harms others, we see the outcome of mistakes that we've made. However, a mistake to one person, would be a gift to another. Everyone is wired different, things effect them differently, they enjoy different things, and they believe differently. The only thing I know without a doubt, is that I am in control. No, I'm not a control freak, who needs to always have everything my way. But I do control the way I feel, not life, not others, not religion, not nature...I do. I pray that one day everyone will feel the same. That they'll wake up one morning and choose to be happy..because they can.
We don't have to be victims.
Last night when I was talking to Ross, he said something along the lines of "We have to do it wrong first to understand how to do it right."
He's great.
