I'll take the blame

"And once you lose yourself, you have two choices. Find the person you used to be or lose that person completely. Because sometimes you have to step outside of the person you've been and remember the person you were meant to be. The person you wanted to be. The person you are."

I've been thinking lately where I would be now if I had never met him.
If I'd be here in a pool of self-doubt, wondering how the hell I've managed to screw up yet again.


I miss feeling inoccent.
I miss my father being the only man in my life.
I miss taking others helpful advice.

I hate having these off days where I beat myself up over the past.

I hate him some days. Other days I thank him.
But at the end of the day, I only have myself to blame.

“You can choose to blame your circumstances on fate or bad luck or bad choices.
Or you can fight back.
Things aren’t always going to be fair in the real world. That’s just the way it is.
But for the most part, you get what you give.
Rest of your life is being shaped right now. With the dreams you chase….The choices you make….and the person you decide to be.
The rest of your life is a long time. And the rest of your life starts right now.”