And what about the truth?

It's been a year since I left high school.
I've missed out on a lot and experienced things I could have avoided if I staid.
Regardless of all the bad, I'm happy in my decision. I'm ten times stronger of a person than I was a year ago. I have many people to thank for that.
This year can be summed up in the great words of Johnny Cash. But I won't be living inside his song anymore, it's time for something better.

"Hurt"

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way


I once had a garden filled with flowers
that grew only in dark thoughts.
But they needed constant attention
and one day I decided I had better things to do.